Trust or NO Trust???

Since two weeks ago which is a Friday, 20 February 2009. My Dear has no trust in me as I told him a lie that I went to Philippines as I have reason for me to do so... =(

On the 28 February, he had choose to talk to me on this 'lie'. Why am I telling him this lie? He looked at my phone. Browsing all my contacts, messages, log, etc... All I have to do is to keep quiet. I know I'm in the SUPER wrong this time. But just don't want him to worried for me, I choose to not tell him where I go to so I told him a lie.

Anyway now wherever I go to, I have to inform him. I don't mind to do all this but can he do the same to me???

I have no trust in him too... But when I asked him for his phone, he just simply don't allow me to touch it. Its really UNFAIR! But all these I didn't told him... I don't want to quarrel with him. But I really don't why he is so anxious about me even he don't want to open up this relationship... I feel very 'xin ku' at times... Everytime he goes party, I really don't wish people telling me that he with another very close. The girl kiss him, etc... I really had enough of this... I really feel very 'xin ku'. Telling my friends about it, no matter is a guy or gal. All gave me the same answer: 'Just leave him and you will sure find someone who is better than him.'

Friends, I know that but I just can't let go, you know???

I really don't know what to do now??? Can someone tell me please??? =(