Richard Tan's Wedding

Hmm... Another few more hours, I will be attending Richard's wedding at Harbourfront... He told me that he invited a lot of our secondary school classmates and school mates. At this moment, I don't feel like going as I'm afraid that I will think of my cousin, Adrain. =( As most of them are very close to him... I just feel very sad now... Holding on to my tears whenever I think of my cosuin. I have tried not to think of him, but I'm just afraid that when I go to this dinner, I will start to think of him again... =(

What should I do? Should I go or not?

Updates:
Finally I decided to go to Richard's wedding... The moment I reached there, I felt a bit lost and strange as it has been a long long time I didn't met up with my secondary friends... =) After awhile, I felt ok and so happy after knowing that so many of them are happily married and have children in their lives now... Among them I think I'm the last to get married... =) When will it be my turn??? WHEN???... haha... =)